Good Morning friends,
My disclaimer to this entry is that I am not in high spirits right now, so you truly might want to skip reading this one.
I have started to type an entry so many times the past several weeks..but always stopped after the first couple of sentences...Things, well, have just continued to be challenging here.
My finances are definately in need of attention and repair...but I have so many other pressing issues- I don't or haven't
made them a priority...something I KNOW I will regret in the not too distant future.
Oregon did give back kicker checks this year (if they don't spend enough, it has to be returned) which meant about $1300 back in the family budget. This is the good news...(although I have to scratch my head in wonder over the rebate since we went over half the year without public libraries due to lack of funding???) Oh well, I have put it into a savings account until we decide what to do with it.
I think I blogged earlier about the tree falling on DD1 and family's 5th wheel and totalling it. The kids were living in it trying to save money for a house. They are now living in, what was our trailer. (Perhaps the $1300 could be used as a down payment on a new trailer for us???)
I had to have BOTH my parents transported to the ER Thursday night. My dad will be realeased under hospice care and will not be going back to the hospital. I am going to take leave from my job to be his caregiver- which, sadly, will be a short leave. My mom is facing a major surgery decision and is not sure she wants to have it if it means no papa to come home to.... ugh. This is the reason I have stopped blogging. It is just to darn depressing. Have you ever tried to admit someone into the ER?? Times two it was pretty stressful. They are now in rooms- at opposite sides of the hospital, so I am at least getting lots of walking in.
To illustrate perfectly the circle of life, however...at about 1am Friday morning, the doctor told me my dads heart is failing...a few minutes later my DD1 broke down and said (just in case papa didn't make it)she had to tell us her news that she was saving for Christas...my next grandbaby is due in August.
My tree is up, but undecorated. Mu gifts are bought- some wrapped, some not. But the spirit is still there. We have so many blessings to be thankful for---it is just really, really hard to focus on those right now.
DD3s 16th birthday is the 24th, we are having her party tonight...minus nana and papa...I am really trying to make it special---boy this is tough.
I can't help but hope that 2008 will bring peace.
What will 2008 bring?
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