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My pre-Holiday Pity Party

November 23rd, 2011 at 03:31 am

What is wrong with me?

I have been teary for days...and today I left work early using a mental health break excuse...when really, I just came home and lost it.

I have so much to be greatful for..we are ahead on bills, and starting to make headway in paying ahead on our debt. The hub loves his job...I have about 15 coming for Thanksgiving and am ready for the big day..

But I am sad. Dag nabbit. I miss my parents. I did ok last year, but this year is tougher for some reason. Maybe having my son and his family gone this year...maybe having the hub in Alaska...not sure.

Sorry to complain...really, I have so much I am thankful for.

I know taking two classes this term was more stressful than I want to do again. And because of the changes at work, I am seriously reconsidering school altogether. Especially when I have to choose between my grandkids and school on the weekends. I enjoy learning- but I also enjoy having time to bake and enjoy my grandbabies.

Ok, enough whining for one post. I am not sure why such a mood lately...I need to just snap out of it.

Posted in general thoughts | 14 Comments »

14 Responses to “My pre-Holiday Pity Party”

  1. creditcardfree Says:
    November 23rd, 2011 at 03:54 am 1322020443
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    It is okay to be sad, especially when things change. Sounds like a lot of change, too. Take care and know that if you aren't feeling better in a couple weeks you might want to check in with your doctor.

  2. LuckyRobin Says:
    November 23rd, 2011 at 03:58 am 1322020680
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    ((((HUGS)))) Any of those reasons are enough to make you blue, and it is hard not having your spouse home every night. You have gone through a lot of changes this year. A LOT. Sometimes it can just get overwhelming. And that's what tears are for. It's okay just to break down and release all that stress sometimes. We don't always have to be strong. Also, you may not be getting enough daylight right now. You know how it is in the PNW, and perhaps one of those special lights and some vitamin D would be helpful. I know they help me.

  3. whitestripe Says:
    November 23rd, 2011 at 04:14 am 1322021684
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    aww, hugs to thrifty ray. I was also going to suggest some vitamin D Big Grin Also a nice long walk, and if you can do it at sunrise or sunset, even better - it will make you remember all the beautiful things you can experience even by yourself.
    School can be overwhelming. I am in denial about how far behind I am right now, even though I only started a new semester two weeks ago (I am exactly two weeks behind - go figure, lol).

  4. Thrifty Ray Says:
    November 23rd, 2011 at 04:27 am 1322022433
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    Thank you ladies. I have some Vit D left over from my last prescription. I will try that. I plan to enjoy my daughters and their families on Thursday...and then I will wrap up school in two weeks. I am taking a term off just to rethink everything. So there is light at the end of the tunnel. I am missing my parents so much this year..but KNOW I have so much to be greatful for.

    I really appreciate the support here. Being able to share and get advise is so reassuring. Thank you!!!

  5. baselle Says:
    November 23rd, 2011 at 04:51 am 1322023881
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    {{Hugs}}. Let me tell you a story. I was on a Seattle bus on a Sunday last June, bright sunny day and I began to cry uncontrollably for what I thought was no reason. I had to leave the bus to get myself together. At home, I looked on the calendar and sure enough, it was the 2nd anniversary of little Morgan's death. I'm not trying to compare loss of kitty with loss of parents, but I am trying to say your unconscious mind will remember and grieve, no matter what your conscious mind tries to do to prevent it. Take care.

  6. Amber Says:
    November 23rd, 2011 at 04:52 am 1322023940
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    It is okay to lose it/feel sad you're human. I'm sending you a ((hug)) as well. Have you looked into online classes?

  7. My English Castle Says:
    November 23rd, 2011 at 04:53 am 1322024002
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    It just comes in waves sometimes, doesn't it.
    Rest, a little exercise, some sunshine, dinner with friends?
    It's tough at the holidays without our parents. :-(

  8. FrugalTexan75 Says:
    November 23rd, 2011 at 05:20 am 1322025620
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    Not much I can add except another {{{hug}}} hope you feel better soon.

  9. Ima saver Says:
    November 23rd, 2011 at 02:57 pm 1322060276
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    Hugs from me too. Things will get better.

  10. ThriftoRama Says:
    November 23rd, 2011 at 07:43 pm 1322077394
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    I still cry. Dad died 3 years ago and grandpa 4, but sometimes the feeling of sadness, anger, crying, etc. just rushes over you. Think of it as a testament to how much you still love them, and how important they were to you.

  11. retire@50 Says:
    November 23rd, 2011 at 08:09 pm 1322078971
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    hope you feel better soon

  12. Thrifty Ray Says:
    November 24th, 2011 at 03:57 am 1322107035
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    Thank you friends. Your advice and well wishes are much appreciated!!

  13. creditcardfree Says:
    December 14th, 2011 at 05:23 pm 1323883414
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    We want to hear how you are doing TR! Are you feeling any better?

  14. LuckyRobin Says:
    December 14th, 2011 at 06:28 pm 1323887329
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    Getting worried about you? How are you doing?

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